Counseling - Paul's reply (autism / faith in God / Christian Life )

 

A person needs Help ... (see my reply - section #B) Section #A Urgent: Please please cover me in prayer; I have broken/ dying faith and if I am not careful/ abandoned by the family of God and don’t belong I may lose my faith entirely ! I am so confused about the Bible and have many unanswered questions

I have been having doubts and confusions pertaining to the Bible! I have been dealing with false ideas and lies and I feel like I am never good enough for God and that I won’t ever turn from my sins because of how I am neurologically made and that it’s impossible for me to understand certain parts of the Bible! My faith has relied on other people because I have never been able to get a concrete understanding because of my autism and often times need certain things visualized to me through other people and when that gets cut off I tend to struggle! I have been on the verge of giving up and felt like it is impossible to do the things I want to do because of my chronic illnesses and other issues that I have been having to deal with! I have been struggling with the validity of the Bible and often times was told by my mom that the Bible is outdated and not to believe everything! I feel like I have to fight the dark trenches alone due to the stigma and fear of being judged by other Christan’s for not being good enough and seeming weird and strange compared to everyone else! I have been struggling with knowing how true the Word of God is especially with the Old Testament and my identity in Christ! I tend to exalt others and to bring my self down especially when things get hard!! Even though I know that God will bring me out of this I feel like because of who I am I have to stay down forever and if I keep having to be isolated I will eventually fall away and give up! I feel alone in all of this!!

I have mostly lost my ability to be humble and of support to others and I am in turn growing in to a toxic person due to feeling so malnourished and starving in my faith! I have been struggling with motivation to read my Bible and getting much out of what I’m reading and I have been feeling like a burden to other Christians and that everyone is acting set apart but there’s me who’s struggling and still having worldly things and taking forever to let God change me!

I feel like I have been left to pick up all the pieces in isolation and when I can’t make it to church, I feel like I have been left in the trenches to shreds and to die in my faith alone and to be dying spiritually so alone that you can’t even comprehend it and I have been struggling to hear God in the midst of this and I have been left with when ever I have been in a time of need I have been feeling like I have either been getting little to no help or help out of obligation and I don’t feel like I belong anywhere anymore

I have been spiritually dying alone with all the confused and unanswered questions not knowing what to do next with my faith!!

I feel like I have sinned and done so many wrong things against other people that it is not even funny anymore!! I have asked too many questions in the hard situations! I have been complaining and burdening with my issues and have been mislead spritusly by my family and figure out truth from lies and have way too many things to process! I have used the fear/ chance of people not responding to texts to enhance my control issues and my own gain and no response assuming the go ahead and have been having messed up boundaries and social coumincation/ awareness and struggling to unlearn the bad habits!!!

Saying the hard questions feels like I am being too heretical and mean and antigonizing and I have always hesitated bringing up that and when I do bring out that I have been feeling guilt, shame, and regret Section #B (my reply )

Paul Chang

Experienced parent

There are 2 to 4 major areas I picked up from your posting.

One that stood out the most is this phrase you said:

"...that I won’t ever turn from my sins because of how I am neurologically made and that it’s impossible for me to understand certain parts of the Bible".

1. How do you know you have sins ?

2. Oftentimes, I didn't understand the Bible or how to be saved because I was not taught correctly or the ways of teaching was difficult for me to understand.

Do you understand the following?

https://youtu.be/1YLhVtJGtUI?t=131

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Usually, people with autism can be helped and trained in making life adjustments.

Positive reinforcement (praise and encouragement ) with different situations from different people can improve the lives of an autistic person.

Autism is not a "permanent" condition with proper guidance and counseling - How to talk to yourself.

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Introspection (looking within the self) often triggers negative energy and negative thoughts.

Autistic persons can be easily self-blaming, having a low view of oneself because no one tells them or interact with them in a positive and nurture way.

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Participation in small groups, Begin with one person, then add on to 2, then 3 other people in playing games, sports, and something fun.

Jesus invites anyone (with any conditions) to come to follow Him. To listen and study what Jesus said. His promises to us.

Jesus gives us "peace" and "hope" that no one in the world can give us.

I attached a list of "positive" characteristics of an "autistic" person. It is so true !! Be sure to save it on your cell phone and read it every week.